Dark Night of the Soul
"Dark night of the soul" sounds like a threatening and much to be avoided experience. Yet perhaps a quarter of the seekers on the road to higher consciousness will pass through the dark night. In fact, they may pass through several until they experience the profound joy of their true nature.
Many seekers would encourage the dark night experience if they knew what it was. However, to one engaged in the dark night, suffering seems unending.
The dark night occurs after considerable advancement toward higher consciousness. Indeed, the dark night usually occurs like an initiation before one of these special seekers is admitted into regular relationship with higher consciousness. The dark night also occurs to those who do not seek relationship but immersion or unity in the higher consciousness. While the term dark night of the soul is used broadly, its general meaning — in the field of higher consciousness — is a lengthy and profound absence of light and hope. In the dark night you feel profoundly alone.
You Can’t Fit In
The dark night usually develops this way:
You, as a genuine seeker, have gone through many significant phases as you progress toward higher consciousness. Your faith is strong. You have kept loyal companionship with fellow seekers and perhaps you have already found a special teacher. You’ve experienced indications of the reality of higher consciousness and yearn to be more deeply in communion with it. You see the principles of a higher power at work in your life. Yet, all in all, you find yourself somehow painfully on the outside. You feel caught between your old way of living, your old tendencies and associations, and this nebulous, unreachable realm of higher consciousness.
You feel an exile in both places. You don’t belong in the old pastimes. in the old empty or numbing way of life, yet you somehow can’t fit in or feel at home in the fellowship of those who talk naturally of the higher consciousness and its reality. They are experienced, they are absorbed in it. They are loving, giving people. But you are unable to live, with full heart and mind, the way they do. They’re able to apply the principles of higher consciousness easily, yet it’s so hard for you. They have manifestations and proofs on a regular basis. You only stretch like a human mule after a receding corncob while pulling the heavy weight of your old tendencies behind you.
You try to be good, and often you can’t. You try to be loving and find at times your heart is hard like stone. Sometimes your projects fall down around your ears. You keep struggling and still you don’t break through. You understand the path is one of joy and yet your life seems to have been barren for a month or two, perhaps longer. Where did that early joy and zest go?
Hanging On
Up to this particular time there was joy, there was delight. But now there is only a hanging on, a dogged hanging on. You persist because you can’t conceive of going back to your old way of life. That seems impossible now. That would be like going to prison, living as if with a transorbital lobotomy.
You deeply want to have joy and fulfillment, easily manifest prosperity, but something’s not working. You don’t know what it is but something’s awry, and your meditations have lost their luster. Sometimes, during rare meditations, you do experience brief moments of peace. Your agonizing mind and heart rest from their turbulence and even these fleeting times of calm are so deeply appreciated. Your light dance of life, which had gone on for some time, is now a trudging in what seems a devastated and alien land.
Your fellow seekers look at you and show their concern. Their words of kindness are valued but you feel you’re somehow incapable of responding well. Your heart is numb. At these times your friends try to cheer you up. They invite you to dinner. You seem to perform fairly well, despite the emptiness you feel inside. What else is there to do? You wonder if you have any right to be in their fellowship at all. You think of leaving town, but where would you go? What good would diversion be?
A number of your friends in the fellowship of this great path know what you are going through for they have been through it themselves. They feel the main thing to do is encourage you to go on. They know if you keep it up and do not quit you will succeed. They know if you quit you will be a self-reject and will return to the old life, forever a foreigner, being neither at home with it nor at home anywhere else. They recognize that your own higher self, out of love, is lifting you up into its embrace. They see you are being drawn into your dark night because:
your inner potential has great stature
your crusty, old ego requires you go through the dark night in order to be transformed.
You Feel Totally Alone
Other seekers, for various reasons, do not have to pass through the dark night. However, the dark night is your way.
Your night is a very difficult time. While others may one day envy you for the marvelous growth you experienced in such a short, intensified period, you will, because of the pain of your experience, always feel profound compassion for those whom you one day see going through a similar night.
Being caught between the old way of life and the new possibilities, your sense of alienation intensifies. Your sense of inadequacy and not knowing what to do next becomes gnawingly constant. You feel you would do anything to get out of this state, yet it is only your ego which is keeping you in it. However, this insight is impossible for you to grasp while going through your long night.
And you feel so totally alone. Sure, you have friends and you appreciate them, but you are keenly aware they are not capable of feeling what you are feeling or knowing what you are going through. Sometimes they seem like clowns, sometimes they seem empty-headed, caught up in meaningless pursuits. They do not understand, you think, how much you are suffering or how you cry out and pray deep into each midnight. You try their advice but it doesn’t seem to touch the heart of the matter.
You begin to enter the dark night in earnest when you feel completely stranded. In the fullness of the dark night you don’t know where you are spiritually. You’re separate from God and man. You do not know where to turn. Your friends love you and wish you well but your condition does not improve.
The dark night is a very private matter. The person in the dark night is generally able to function quite well despite inner suffering. Often your acquaintances never suspect that you are going through the dark night — they probably do not even know what it is. Only people close to you — especially friends along the path — can recognize your pain.
You feel like a hollow person doing the activities of life with no motivation except expediency. Your eyes seem deeper in your head. You are profoundly aware of the suffering of humanity and the cruelty of one person to another. You feel that cruelty and negativity far outweigh love and constructive action.
You Enter Midnight
Alone, and not wishing to be, unable even to express yourself to others, you enter midnight and the greatest intensity of the dark night. Here you have finally come to the time of sovereign solitude. In this precious time, which has no apparent prospects of love or happiness, you clearly perceive that nothing in the outer world has proven adequate to heal your condition. Nobody, not even your dearest friends and loved ones, can make you whole. Even if they have tried, and love you enough to try loving you forever, they can’t give you peace.
You eye your books and consider all the benefit you have gained from these extremely wise vessels of truth. Yet not one book, not one thought, goes deep enough inside you to where the affliction abides.
You look at your possessions, your money container. No material thing has been able to help you. No material means have worked. Nothing, no one, in the outer world has enabled you to come out of this dark night.
In your loneliness, you next — in a seemingly random process — notice that none of your thoughts have proven adequate to your suffering. Not one — even repeated fifty thousand times — breaks the inner storm and lets in light. God and higher consciousness seem so far away that perhaps they are unreal. Neither one has, despite your protracted exposure of yourself, done anything to ease or remove your agony. Nothing appears efficacious. Nothing works.
Clearly, there is nowhere to turn. There is nothing to be done. All actions you considered have been tried. There is nothing to think, nothing to feel, nothing to do, nowhere to go. It seems you have to accept this defeat — or, you can persist in struggling against it. For awhile longer, you go about thinking, feeling, and doing other options that occur to you. But you realize in the midnight of your soul that you have tried every option you know of.
The Peace Comes
Helpless, totally helpless, as well as ever so alone, you abide in this condition. And you accept your predicament. You accept that there is really, except for a murmured prayer to a remote Lord and a remnant of a shredded faith, nothing else left.
Suicide would be absurd. Suicide would be an act of arrogance and vanity. You have grown far beyond such primitive responses to your private agony. No, nothing to do. Nothing remains in this lonely helplessness. There is, without question, nothing you can do.
You abide. You accept your state. How have you gotten to this place? That’s insignificant. Musings and feelings aside, you wait. You feel you may have to stay this way forever, doing the regular day-to-day things, but in this mood of emptiness. Nothing. Nothing.
Then, it happens. A holy presence comes into your room — sweetly, softly. You feel it filling you. Your mind is filled with mellow or bright light. Your heart, your still heart, is permeated with peace. This peace moves through your body like a cold spring of mountain water. It flows in your spine, your brain, and under your skin. Everywhere.
Also, this presence, this comforter, moves like a breeze across your arid mind and numb heart. Then, or a few days later, the fire of joy begins to smoulder. Here, abiding with nothing more to do, your ego drops away! Your ignorant, arrogant, fearful sense of self falls away from you. You stand in light — a new being, a free being — transformed.
Your Ego Sense
Believe it or not, that’s what the dark night is all about: transformation. Your ego, your limited sense of self, your inadequate complex of ideas about who you are had to be dissolved. Your ego was, you begin to see, eclipsing higher consciousness and your true nature. Your old sense of self was inadequate to your new hopes and proper state. Your suffering intensified because of a major misapprehension. You were too used to thinking of yourself based on inputs from your previous experiences in life. On and on through life, you gathered information and responses from the world which indicated to you what kind of person you were and are. These superficial units of related inputs became integrated in what is called the ego — your sense of self, your sense of who you are. As long as you allowed this inaccurate or only partial sense of who you are to dominate, you could not know or abide in your true nature.
Your ego sense is so powerful — you invest it with so much of your thought and feeling — that your attitudes of life become based on an egocentric perspective. The ego gains a progressively greater foothold on your entire life because your basic attitudes about your existence and essential nature are strongly linked with ego.
Then, your ego sense, due to your suffering or your limitations in life, wants to have more power over circumstances and a more pleasant life. The ego sense often becomes motivated to seek higher consciousness and, thus, greater ability to dominate in life. Not always, but often, it is the ego sense which most eagerly pursues higher consciousness. It wants to be in charge; it wants to manipulate events and make life come out more to its satisfaction. But, as long as your ego dominates, it is on a collision course with your true nature and your higher consciousness. There’s going to be a showdown. There has to be a confrontation sometime if your higher consciousness is ever to emerge, if you are ever to know truly who you are and what your human capabilities are.
Furthermore — and this is extremely important, especially in understanding the dark night of the soul — your ego, as it develops from childhood onward, has the conviction that it is the doer. Generally, your ego assumes that it chooses what your mind will think, and chooses what your heart will feel. It feels it selects the various actions and activities you are going to undertake. Your sense of self, being convinced it is the doer, feels it accomplishes anything and everything in your life. Do you see, then, how the dark night develops? A false sense of self has been ignorantly and manipulatively standing in the way of enlightenment.
Additionally, until you are consolidated in higher consciousness, your ego can return and reestablish control if you let it. Sometimes when you’re fatigued or when you have special, new opportunities in life, you are vulnerable to the reestablishment of your ego and its opinion that it is in charge of doing everything. It will again eclipse the higher consciousness until you recognize what has happened. Then you must courageously and consciously reaffirm your true nature, and deal with the upstart, old ego. Otherwise, another dark night phase will again develop.
Attempts of the Ego
A person seeking higher consciousness is, in effect, and with intensity, seeking the transformation of his own ego. He is seeking to end the tyranny of the ego and abide in his true nature, instead of a false nature concocted through experiences and emotional inputs during the process of life. While it is true these inputs have a value in subjecting you to new experiences and so offer unique learning situations, they often give you a delusory sense of self. You are not your mistake. Even a murderer can change and become a new being.
Still, as you progress toward higher consciousness, your ego may not be humbling and daily transforming itself. You may, instead, have a highly developed ego which is sure that it is causing the events of higher consciousness to unfold bit by bit. Your ego, after all, can be very interested in the attributes of higher consciousness, in meditation and association with enlightened beings. Your ego feels gratification and satisfaction in moving on down the road toward higher consciousness.
Your ego may also have the opinion that, because of its grasp of matters, it will one day establish or — by its thought process and feelings —bring about enlightenment and awakening. It is convinced that it will achieve higher consciousness. This is ironic because by the time of the dark night, the ego is the main obstacle; it is the obstruction of the light of consciousness. It stands between you and your fulfillment. In fact, the length of your dark night is based on the truculence and cunning of your ego. It can fight a very lengthy battle if it fears it’s going to be destroyed or will have to give in to something so much greater than it knows itself to be.
Incredibly, your ego wants to be in on the act of enlightenment. Ego wants to bring about higher consciousness by its own dramatic means. Certainly, it doesn’t want to be granted fulfillment by a power outside of itself. Convinced that it is the doer, your ego holds on for dear life — until that event called the dark night of the soul, when your ego awakens to the profound fact it cannot cause or bring about higher consciousness.
Ego cannot, by its will or any other skills whatever, create the wholeness of heart which will end your deep suffering. In a sense your ego recognizes itself — in the dark night — to be the disease. It recognizes that its foothold on your mind and heart has, at an advanced stage on your path, proven a great numbing agent and a high stone wall against the light. Ego stands against the fulfillment of your faith and the realization of your profoundest yearnings. Finally your ego has found something it cannot do and, in the dark night of the soul, it becomes totally convinced it is inadequate. It cannot deal with your suffering or the fulfillment of the heart’s yearning. Nothing it can do, think, say, buy, or travel to, will in any way suffice.
Dawn of a New Life
Here in this dark night, the lifelong ego sense dies: impotent. Having fulfilled its part, now weak and incompetent, it is dissolved — transmuted. From a higher sense now awakening within you, you slough off your false sense of self. You now know yourself to be a different person than you thought you were. Your ego was merely experiencing some of the attributes, some of the qualities, of your true nature, while at the same time obstructing others.
You, in passing successfully through the dark night, enter the realms of higher consciousness. You’ve been cleansed of the most deep-rooted sickness: your ignorance of your true nature and your inadequate, often totally wrong opinion of who you are. You now cease your inner conflict and abide serenely in your true nature. The night is over. The dawn of a new life in higher consciousness transforms your bleak life of the past few months into one with a heavenly nature. You have been delivered of the intolerable bondage to ego.
Henceforth, you will walk the earth seeing others afresh, living a new life, and abiding in your true nature. You have become a son or daughter of higher consciousness. Now your words and actions will be attuned with your true self. Now you express inspiration and comfort.
The dark night has passed. It is over.
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Thursday, April 29, 2010
Saturday, April 17, 2010
The Power in Herbs
Witch doctors, medicine men, shamans, wise-women were the healers of our past. They were the doctors and pharmacists that everybody went to for their aches and pains. They knew all about the natural world. They could heal almost anything with a few herbs, roots, and blessing or two.
Today medicine seems to forget that we it hold its roots to the old ones. It seems pharmaceutical companies are always trying to come up the new drugs for new illnesses. Sometimes I wonder though, which came first the new disease or the new medicine for it.
It is my personal opinion that we should pay more attention to nature to heal our bodies and less on synthetic drugs. Have you read the list of side effects that some of these medicines have? Sometimes , it seems they are worse then the original disease. Of course it does lead into a vicious cycle. Because then you need more drugs, to cure the side effects, and ah, more horrific side affects, more drugs.
Yes, there are side effects to using herbs also. So why not learn. Early medicine did. Willow bark became aspirin. The first diabetes medicines were based on things like cinnamon and other spices that will lower blood augur. Digitalis, which is a flower is still used in heart medicine.
So really, were the old ones really so “Hocey”? It is also found that the power of the mind can do a lot for healing as well. So, I say the next time you need to take a pill, say a blessing or a little prayer, it might work faster.
Today medicine seems to forget that we it hold its roots to the old ones. It seems pharmaceutical companies are always trying to come up the new drugs for new illnesses. Sometimes I wonder though, which came first the new disease or the new medicine for it.
It is my personal opinion that we should pay more attention to nature to heal our bodies and less on synthetic drugs. Have you read the list of side effects that some of these medicines have? Sometimes , it seems they are worse then the original disease. Of course it does lead into a vicious cycle. Because then you need more drugs, to cure the side effects, and ah, more horrific side affects, more drugs.
Yes, there are side effects to using herbs also. So why not learn. Early medicine did. Willow bark became aspirin. The first diabetes medicines were based on things like cinnamon and other spices that will lower blood augur. Digitalis, which is a flower is still used in heart medicine.
So really, were the old ones really so “Hocey”? It is also found that the power of the mind can do a lot for healing as well. So, I say the next time you need to take a pill, say a blessing or a little prayer, it might work faster.
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
Dreaming Dharma
Something interesting happened today. It felt like remembering a dream. In the dream my partner asked if I wanted Ink or a doughnut? Then became quite frustrated when I my dream self I had no clue as to what he was talking about.
It's kind of like that riddle from Alice in Wonderland, when she was asked when is a raven like a writing desk? Well hum, first you would have to know the nature of each, but that is looking at the question from a logical point of view. Let's face it the point of Alice in wonderland was not logical.
So which do you want ink or a doughnut? First we have to forget about logic, because it was a dream. Then the other element that must be disregarded is relevance. You know what does this have to do with that?
Well the funny part was I started looking up Dharma training, and was drawn to Great Vow Zen Monastery in Oregon. They have a section of MP3's. Hum OK, interesting. But that led me to YouTube to see some throat singing videos. I find them just amazing. I saw a group live once. Just amazing, and they are very proud of their culture. Which begs the question. Why aren't we?
OK, no politics, this is dreaming and Dharma. What is Dharma. (Other that a name in an odd TV show)
1.
performing of duties of Hinduism: in Hinduism, somebody's duty to behave according to strict religious and social codes, or the righteousness earned by performing religious and social duties
2.
eternal truth in Buddhism: in Buddhism, the truth about the way things are and will always be in the universe or in nature, especially when contained in scripture
for our talk today, we will go with definition #2.
so the Dharma of dreams is about finding truth in the twilight of your mind, and as it universal truth, then there must be a universal mind, and in the universal mind is the universal dream. Now the big question of the day: who is dreaming whom?
Are we dreaming gods, or is God dreaming us?
As we continue the path we become closer to enlightenment, but that is only the journey not the destination. The destination is to be one with all.
More later.
It's kind of like that riddle from Alice in Wonderland, when she was asked when is a raven like a writing desk? Well hum, first you would have to know the nature of each, but that is looking at the question from a logical point of view. Let's face it the point of Alice in wonderland was not logical.
So which do you want ink or a doughnut? First we have to forget about logic, because it was a dream. Then the other element that must be disregarded is relevance. You know what does this have to do with that?
Well the funny part was I started looking up Dharma training, and was drawn to Great Vow Zen Monastery in Oregon. They have a section of MP3's. Hum OK, interesting. But that led me to YouTube to see some throat singing videos. I find them just amazing. I saw a group live once. Just amazing, and they are very proud of their culture. Which begs the question. Why aren't we?
OK, no politics, this is dreaming and Dharma. What is Dharma. (Other that a name in an odd TV show)
1.
performing of duties of Hinduism: in Hinduism, somebody's duty to behave according to strict religious and social codes, or the righteousness earned by performing religious and social duties
2.
eternal truth in Buddhism: in Buddhism, the truth about the way things are and will always be in the universe or in nature, especially when contained in scripture
for our talk today, we will go with definition #2.
so the Dharma of dreams is about finding truth in the twilight of your mind, and as it universal truth, then there must be a universal mind, and in the universal mind is the universal dream. Now the big question of the day: who is dreaming whom?
Are we dreaming gods, or is God dreaming us?
As we continue the path we become closer to enlightenment, but that is only the journey not the destination. The destination is to be one with all.
More later.
Tuesday, February 9, 2010
Oh Capricorn, what a Year!
Date with Destiny
The dark Lord Pluto is in your sign, and early degrees especially may be feeling its concentrated power. Pluto is about dying a total death -- like a fire moving through the forest -- so that the heat cracks open new life. There's intensity, sometimes loss and trauma. But it's all designed to strip you of anything that's "Not You" to reveal the true core.
That translates into a year (or years) of experiences that challenge you to let go of who you think you are. It's the loss of the social facade, so that who you truly are can emerge onto the stage. What's repressed is poked and provoked, until you overcome your fear and let it out. No stones are left unturned within the psyche. It's a time for courage, and the faith that what doesn't kill you, will make you stronger.
On Whose Authority?
We're seeing now a questioning of entrenched power that threatens to change society forever. This probing going on in the world at large, is also something you're wrestling with at the soul level. As a Capricorn, you're born to wield real world power and set high standards for your life. This Pluto transit burns away any shadow behaviors that keep you from your highest achievement.
You may have to come to terms with your own or others manipulative behaviors. It's about seeing into the truth of a situation. You may confront any obsessions you have with control, including its extremes. The seduction of totalitarianism is rearing its ugly head in society. You may also find yourself acknowledging your own inner dictator that would be ruthless in achieving your aims.
Phoenix Descending
This year has you continuing to strip and peel away the outer layers. You may have to show tough love as you let go of certain ties. Some may let go of you. You're likely to crave solitude, to cut out the distractions, in order to stay in tune with yourself. This year, take the time you need to seek your own inner counsel, and process what's happening.
You are being taken into your own psychic underworld, and may be surprised at what's revealed. All this will eventually allow you to build around the soul essence. You will be a more authentic, stronger you, who knows you can face anything.
The Straight and Narrow
Even as this deep plutonian transformation is underway, Saturn is requiring that you work within certain boundaries. If doors close, this is Saturn's way of keeping you from wasting your precious energy. Saturn is in Libra, the sign of partnership, so much of your feedback comes from others.
That mirroring in the eyes of others shows you when you're being too extreme. The support of others brings you back from the edge. The give and take with others allows you to share the psychic load of what you're going through. You can lean on others, and find that there are those committed to being there for the good, bad and the ugly. The responses from others helps you stay in balance.
There are two squares between Pluto (transformation) and Saturn (structures) that bring things to a head. These happen on January 31st and August 21st. Something has to give! The tension can cause a rupture in your life structures. But there's a chance, too, that all this happens deep within your soul and psyche. It helps to let go of what's dead or dying in your life. That lightens your load, and gives you the flexibility to adjust to any unexpected changes.
Lightning Strikes
It's a year that promises both societal and personal upheaval. Saturn makes squares to shocker Uranus (on April 26th and July 26th) that bring on sudden shattering events. The unexpected nature of Uranian events makes them hard to plan for. Chaotic events can be freeing, but also unsettling. This is where you'll want to quickly discern your best action, and go into damage control mode.
You can be pro-active and take charge of what's in your control. But in 2010, there may be events that you can only react to as best you can in the moment. There's an X-factor in looking ahead to 2010 of wild, impossible to predict events that could envelop the entire globe. Some of it is magical, as it's like a current lighting up all of humanity. You'll find hope there at the edges of what's possible, in innovative ideas and the future rushing to meet us. You may have to cope with high levels of uncertainty, as you seek to regain your equilibrium. One thing's for sure -- at the end of 2010, you will not be the same person you are today.
Molly Hall, Astrology Guide
About.com
The dark Lord Pluto is in your sign, and early degrees especially may be feeling its concentrated power. Pluto is about dying a total death -- like a fire moving through the forest -- so that the heat cracks open new life. There's intensity, sometimes loss and trauma. But it's all designed to strip you of anything that's "Not You" to reveal the true core.
That translates into a year (or years) of experiences that challenge you to let go of who you think you are. It's the loss of the social facade, so that who you truly are can emerge onto the stage. What's repressed is poked and provoked, until you overcome your fear and let it out. No stones are left unturned within the psyche. It's a time for courage, and the faith that what doesn't kill you, will make you stronger.
On Whose Authority?
We're seeing now a questioning of entrenched power that threatens to change society forever. This probing going on in the world at large, is also something you're wrestling with at the soul level. As a Capricorn, you're born to wield real world power and set high standards for your life. This Pluto transit burns away any shadow behaviors that keep you from your highest achievement.
You may have to come to terms with your own or others manipulative behaviors. It's about seeing into the truth of a situation. You may confront any obsessions you have with control, including its extremes. The seduction of totalitarianism is rearing its ugly head in society. You may also find yourself acknowledging your own inner dictator that would be ruthless in achieving your aims.
Phoenix Descending
This year has you continuing to strip and peel away the outer layers. You may have to show tough love as you let go of certain ties. Some may let go of you. You're likely to crave solitude, to cut out the distractions, in order to stay in tune with yourself. This year, take the time you need to seek your own inner counsel, and process what's happening.
You are being taken into your own psychic underworld, and may be surprised at what's revealed. All this will eventually allow you to build around the soul essence. You will be a more authentic, stronger you, who knows you can face anything.
The Straight and Narrow
Even as this deep plutonian transformation is underway, Saturn is requiring that you work within certain boundaries. If doors close, this is Saturn's way of keeping you from wasting your precious energy. Saturn is in Libra, the sign of partnership, so much of your feedback comes from others.
That mirroring in the eyes of others shows you when you're being too extreme. The support of others brings you back from the edge. The give and take with others allows you to share the psychic load of what you're going through. You can lean on others, and find that there are those committed to being there for the good, bad and the ugly. The responses from others helps you stay in balance.
There are two squares between Pluto (transformation) and Saturn (structures) that bring things to a head. These happen on January 31st and August 21st. Something has to give! The tension can cause a rupture in your life structures. But there's a chance, too, that all this happens deep within your soul and psyche. It helps to let go of what's dead or dying in your life. That lightens your load, and gives you the flexibility to adjust to any unexpected changes.
Lightning Strikes
It's a year that promises both societal and personal upheaval. Saturn makes squares to shocker Uranus (on April 26th and July 26th) that bring on sudden shattering events. The unexpected nature of Uranian events makes them hard to plan for. Chaotic events can be freeing, but also unsettling. This is where you'll want to quickly discern your best action, and go into damage control mode.
You can be pro-active and take charge of what's in your control. But in 2010, there may be events that you can only react to as best you can in the moment. There's an X-factor in looking ahead to 2010 of wild, impossible to predict events that could envelop the entire globe. Some of it is magical, as it's like a current lighting up all of humanity. You'll find hope there at the edges of what's possible, in innovative ideas and the future rushing to meet us. You may have to cope with high levels of uncertainty, as you seek to regain your equilibrium. One thing's for sure -- at the end of 2010, you will not be the same person you are today.
Molly Hall, Astrology Guide
About.com
Saturday, January 23, 2010
If you can keep your head when all about you...
So, I have have a question? What really inspires you? What keeps you motivated to keep going, to keep pushing ahead?
Many of us today are in jobs we hate, because we don't think it is a good time to do anything else. At least for the moment, we have some security, or illusion there of.
I would like to share a poem by one of my favorite classic writers. It's kind of famous, but it still speaks volumes.it is called
IF
Many of us today are in jobs we hate, because we don't think it is a good time to do anything else. At least for the moment, we have some security, or illusion there of.
I would like to share a poem by one of my favorite classic writers. It's kind of famous, but it still speaks volumes.it is called
IF
If you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you;
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,
But make allowance for their doubting too;
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or, being lied about, don't deal in lies,
Or, being hated, don't give way to hating,
And yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise;
If you can dream—and not make dreams your master;
If you can think—and not make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with triumph and disaster
And treat those two imposters just the same;
If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to broken,
And stoop and build 'em up with wornout tools;
If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breathe a word about your loss;
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: "Hold on";
If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
Or walk with kings—nor lose the common touch;
If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you;
If all men count with you, but none too much;
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds' worth of distance run -
Yours is the Earth and everything that's in it,
And—which is more—you'll be a Man my son!
I think it is perfect for even these strange times.
Peace
Kimberly
Friday, January 22, 2010
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
the Angel Meditation
This Angel Meditation blew me away. The image is amazing. Listen with head phones. It really gets into your skull.
I felt renewed and refreshed after watching this video. and be sure to watch it to the end. There is a cute surprise.
I felt renewed and refreshed after watching this video. and be sure to watch it to the end. There is a cute surprise.
Monday, January 18, 2010
money, money, money
Have you tried everything you can think of to get the money you need? Have you tried magic? yes magic. Magic incantaions were the begining of "Law of Attraction;s" affirmations. So why not give it a try. What's the worst that can happen?
Here is an extremely simple yet effective spell for obtaining fast money when needed:
On a Friday during the Waxing Moon anoint a green candle with an appropriate money-drawing oil, such as Patchouli, Jasmine, or Cinnamon. Charge (Go here for anointing and charging techniques) the candle and place in a holder on your altar. Place a brand new shiny penny in front of the holder, and then surround the holder with three green aventurine gemstones. Repeat the following chant 3 times:
"Money, money come to me, $100 (or whatever you need) is what I need!!!
With harm to none and help to many, multiply now this shiny penny!!!"
Now light your candle and gaze into its flame, strongly visualizing the needed money coming to you. Continue with this visualization for as long as possible. After the candle has burned down completely, bury any remaining wax on your property and carry the penny with you to reinforce your magickal intention. Please note that spells to obtain money seem to work better when used for a true need, rather than for greed. For example, if you are having trouble meeting your monthly bills, this spell will help; however, if you are performing this spell because you just want to go out on a spending spree, your results may not be as successful. Please also note that when doing a spell to obtain money, it is imperative that you state somewhere in your chant that no harm shall come to any through the working of your spell. I have heard of several cases of people doing a ritual to obtain money, and then obtaining that money through an insurance policy because their favorite aunt died an untimely death, or because they were involved in a serious automobile accident. Better safe than sorry!!!
Here is an extremely simple yet effective spell for obtaining fast money when needed:
On a Friday during the Waxing Moon anoint a green candle with an appropriate money-drawing oil, such as Patchouli, Jasmine, or Cinnamon. Charge (Go here for anointing and charging techniques) the candle and place in a holder on your altar. Place a brand new shiny penny in front of the holder, and then surround the holder with three green aventurine gemstones. Repeat the following chant 3 times:
"Money, money come to me, $100 (or whatever you need) is what I need!!!
With harm to none and help to many, multiply now this shiny penny!!!"
Now light your candle and gaze into its flame, strongly visualizing the needed money coming to you. Continue with this visualization for as long as possible. After the candle has burned down completely, bury any remaining wax on your property and carry the penny with you to reinforce your magickal intention. Please note that spells to obtain money seem to work better when used for a true need, rather than for greed. For example, if you are having trouble meeting your monthly bills, this spell will help; however, if you are performing this spell because you just want to go out on a spending spree, your results may not be as successful. Please also note that when doing a spell to obtain money, it is imperative that you state somewhere in your chant that no harm shall come to any through the working of your spell. I have heard of several cases of people doing a ritual to obtain money, and then obtaining that money through an insurance policy because their favorite aunt died an untimely death, or because they were involved in a serious automobile accident. Better safe than sorry!!!
Friday, January 15, 2010
Meditation part 2
Part 2 of that meditation series.
It should be noted that i do not take any credit for these set of 5 videos about meditation...i found them on another users account here on youtube & thought they would be helpful for the many people i have email me & ask me about meditation & how they should begin.
I feel these videos give one of the best & most detailed & easy to understand descriptions of meditation that i have come across either in book, video, or cd form this is my reason for sharing them.
It should be noted that i do not take any credit for these set of 5 videos about meditation...i found them on another users account here on youtube & thought they would be helpful for the many people i have email me & ask me about meditation & how they should begin.
I feel these videos give one of the best & most detailed & easy to understand descriptions of meditation that i have come across either in book, video, or cd form this is my reason for sharing them.
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
New Year, New Stuff
Hello again. And welcome.
As we begin a new year, I have started a new blog. I have decided to embrace my earthy spiritualism again. Maybe this time I am wise enough, old enough to handle what comes up.
I guess I have been dancing around this for years. Casting a small spell, here, flipping tarot cards there, but never really very seriously. Now at the dawn of my 48th year, fourth year of the tiger, and probably the beginning of my change it is time to fully embrace the mystery.
I've started with a banishing ritual to clear out old demons, and spirits in my new house, and the ones I didn't mean to bring with me from California. That’s life, ey?
Anyway here is a banishing ritual for those of you who would also like to start over this year.
As we begin a new year, I have started a new blog. I have decided to embrace my earthy spiritualism again. Maybe this time I am wise enough, old enough to handle what comes up.
I guess I have been dancing around this for years. Casting a small spell, here, flipping tarot cards there, but never really very seriously. Now at the dawn of my 48th year, fourth year of the tiger, and probably the beginning of my change it is time to fully embrace the mystery.
I've started with a banishing ritual to clear out old demons, and spirits in my new house, and the ones I didn't mean to bring with me from California. That’s life, ey?
Anyway here is a banishing ritual for those of you who would also like to start over this year.
Sunday, January 10, 2010
Meditating Today
Want to make your dreams real? Well one of those techniques is to learn how to meditate. This process brings you closer to what you want. Meditation is like intentional dreaming.
Meditation also revives us and brings us closer to God. But how to we do this? Want to dream for real watch this:
Meditation also revives us and brings us closer to God. But how to we do this? Want to dream for real watch this:
Thursday, January 7, 2010
Wish List
Sometimes when you are feeling low, it is good to go back over things. Old wish lists, and notes. It is important to remind ourselves sometimes why we are on the path.
Sometimes our path can take unexpected turns, and their are new decisions to be made, so it is important to have our goals in front of us.
Let me tell you about the impotence of creating your wish lists. This morning I ran across a wish list that I wrote six years, ago. On it are things like get out of debt, write more, learn to paint, etc, and at the top of the list- Is retiring at 45.
At the tender age of 45 I “retired” from my old job. Talk about the power of intention!
Setting intentions for the future is important. This is one way you can set your goals in your mind, and in the “mind” of the universe.
What is next? Maybe you to take cruise, maybe you’ll write that book, maybe…So what do you want to attract? More money? A bigger house? A big downline for your business?
Well, you need to be specific. How much money? How big is your house? Where is it? How many people in your downline? So write your wish list, and put it away some place safe, and watch what happens, some things just might be yours in the future.
This is part of the law of attraction. Another part of the Law of Attraction is gratitude. Oh gratitude. … You can’t forget to be grateful for what you have already received.
Being grateful and giving thanks makes us better human beings. When was the last time you said “thank you” to yourself? Oh we say to our friends and colleagues when they have helped us. We say thank you to God for the blessings in our lives, but when was the last time you thanked yourself for the things you do?
My point is never give up. If you are willing to fight and sacrifice a little now for an important goal, oh like financial freedom, then later it
Sometimes our path can take unexpected turns, and their are new decisions to be made, so it is important to have our goals in front of us.
Let me tell you about the impotence of creating your wish lists. This morning I ran across a wish list that I wrote six years, ago. On it are things like get out of debt, write more, learn to paint, etc, and at the top of the list- Is retiring at 45.
At the tender age of 45 I “retired” from my old job. Talk about the power of intention!
Setting intentions for the future is important. This is one way you can set your goals in your mind, and in the “mind” of the universe.
What is next? Maybe you to take cruise, maybe you’ll write that book, maybe…So what do you want to attract? More money? A bigger house? A big downline for your business?
Well, you need to be specific. How much money? How big is your house? Where is it? How many people in your downline? So write your wish list, and put it away some place safe, and watch what happens, some things just might be yours in the future.
This is part of the law of attraction. Another part of the Law of Attraction is gratitude. Oh gratitude. … You can’t forget to be grateful for what you have already received.
Being grateful and giving thanks makes us better human beings. When was the last time you said “thank you” to yourself? Oh we say to our friends and colleagues when they have helped us. We say thank you to God for the blessings in our lives, but when was the last time you thanked yourself for the things you do?
My point is never give up. If you are willing to fight and sacrifice a little now for an important goal, oh like financial freedom, then later it
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
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